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Tuesday, January 26, 2010

i just miss the talks,
the fun 'high' times,
the things we used to do.
gone.

school was okay,
got away with not totally completing work,
which is so me.
used to it since primary school,
such a hard bad habit to break.

like what was preached in school.
always do the hard thing,
instead of the easy way out.
which is stepping out of your comfort zone.
which i'm finding very very difficult.
like cedric keeps encouraging me to talk to sec 1s
i find it abit insane for me to even say hi,
and so difficult.
but if i remain this way,
i can't bring more schoolmates to God.

i keep thinking that,
life is a big game,
which i'm not playing very well.
i keep doing the useless 'quests'
or 'missions'
instead of doing the ones that matter.

like the drama Pastor Joakim had.
that girl made such a difference.
and everyone can do too.
just doesn't seem like i'm trying.

ohmy this is such a bad post.
no smiley or sad face.
nevermind, always better to smile.
must not let other people affect me (:
here's a song to listen to (:
the first parts funny,
cause lindsay lohan refers to God as she (:
so feminist XD

anyway, i gotta go sleep
goodnight people (:

God wont talk to me
I guess she's pretty busy lately
I'd like to believe
She's listening

I'm starting to feel
All of my bruises imagined are real
And I'll get through each day
I dig through the bad ones
To get to the good ones
Who's keeping score anyway?

And this is my beautiful life
only thing certain is everything changes
The lows and the highs
And all those goodbyes
As hard as it gets I know it's still amazing
To be alive
It's a beautiful life

I talk in my sleep
Thats the one place i know no one can hear me
I tell myself things
Don't walk in the shadows
There's always tomorrow
And I'm right where i wanna be

And this is my beautiful life
only thing's certain is everything changes
The lows and the highs
And all those goodbyes
As hard as it gets I know it's still amazing
To be alive

It hurts while it's happening
I wanna feel everything
How can you know til you try?
And this is my beautiful life

My beautiful life
only thing's certain is everything changes
The lows and the highs
And all those goodbyes
As hard as it gets I know it's still amazing
To be alive
It's a beautiful life [3x]
It's a beautiful lie

9:12 PM